we WERE kekasih gelap.....its the end.

Today, 23 June 2011. Now the time is 2.48pm and I'm in the office sitting on new chair :) thanks Adham coz gave me the chair. Anyway today's heart reveal is....hahahaha! guess sape call me last night??? Arbi Suffian Rozlan? so shock and surprise and etc. He was telling me he miss me but? why must have but? he kept quite because he don't like me tell about us to other people. Tell to whom? I asked him....and what to tell? I have nothing to tell anyone anything about u & me >.< He is so much drama....currently in relationship with my good friend and still did not feel any guilt towards me. Now u are telling I am the one who run away from our relationship? U thought things can be work between us but its not happening because I never told him? Hello MR. I am a girl who have proud for myself and I wont go chase running behind guys ass if I am in crushed with u. U are telling u don't dare to tell? Coward? For who I broke up, for who I waited after 2 years? hahahaha. Now u are blaming me? sorry...I am happy for what I am now and with the person I love the most <3 Francis Enrique. What do u think I will felt when u be with my good friend without telling me and I myself found out and I really felt small and embarrassed. When the time me and Ikhwan broke up, I thought we might work things out but u chose Pija and engaged with her and I still a fool waiting for u and after that u broke up, I felt this is the destiny me and u event u have a lot of weakness. I am seeking for true love and I thought our relationship might explain something that I was looking for. And u was missing and a be with someone else again this time u make me felt, I am not for u and u r not totally for me. I am so thankful and grateful for what I have now.......thanks for all the feeling u brought in me.

YOU are GONE......

Today,13th June 2011. I saw your facebook. What an idiot, u are so damn it and selfish when we were together. I don;t care or give a damn anymore but I felt terribly annoyed and GERAM GILA BABI because of the reason of me leaving u and this whole wasting entire relationship for 7 years. We were like one person and u was stopping me to do all what she's been doing now. U was telling me not to do follow your rules, your terms, your condition to be with u. But why it's upside down now?? U are wasting my life and I am so angry for what u have done to me that I could not forgive u and hate u so much more than anything else. Memang sakit sangat hati ni Wan, the way u accept her...why u can accept all the things u don't let me do before....I have nothing to do what u want to do now, it is true but it is sooo UNFAIR. I am thinking a lot about this lately, no idea why but it is killing me and annoyed me so much. She smokes, u don't care, she have friends, she wear what she like. And the best part,,,, she get she wants from u!!! WTF?????? Binatang...how could I be with u last time..and rase kesal takkan pernah habis Wan. U are so fucking idiot that had ever came into my life and it is crumpled me everytime I think about your what u did and what u are doing. Your promises......hahahaha! Now, tgh2 malam u can go and see her. What about me last time?? Are u going to give me all the excuses that u was a boy last time??? Then why were we be for 7 years?? I know I am happy with who I am with now much more than u but I just can't accept it and if I have a chance, I would tell u everything what I felt. By the way, U R BLIND .......