It is my Birthday today, and I'm 22 years old now....erm, still not applicable to buy a car. Hahaha, the best part is everyone are waiting for my age to be applicable to buy a car. LOL. Anyway, what a great day last nite, thanks to my family and my sayang. I love u all alot and this is very special birthday suprise even though I knew that u all will do a suprise for me. Hehehe... Suprisingly this is the second year I celebrate my birthday without the magician. How cool is that, I'm so thankful to have someone better than u. Baby, u always being the best as at now lah. Hm, thank u for your very best that u gave me all this while. I appreciate u so much b, u change the whole thing around me and u complete my life after all. Yesterday, not everyone wish me. Especially my friends. That is why I told everyone, friends now are not the one u can rely and depend or hope can be the one u need when u need someone. Hahaha. What a principe right? But that is me. I never trust friend. Anyway, I thought he won't remember my birthday and he did remember. Thanks and that is so sweet :) ahahahaha.... I don't know what is happening after I got to know that I am still in your heart???? I'm so stupid thinking about someone that had destroy my trust in LOVE before. Why elle??? Stop thinking and he won't be the one for u. You have the one u need for all your life. Why should I? But, to be honest deep in my heart still I'm thinking about u stupid musician. I just felt so guilty right now, is there still a love in me for u? Who can answer me? I'm so angry with myself now, no doubt he did being my very best even though he is no so caring and loving and why we should end up like this? I've been thinking about this. I'm so stupid to love someone like u musician :( This is all my fault, I should not trapped in your love and I don't want to be trap for the whole life. I love someone else more than u now, but still I love u ??? STUPID!!! He is my everything now and he is the one for me. But why why why u did this to me? I'm so heartbroken u know dear? BODOH. It is just a right time and I must FORGET u musician!! I love my sayang now, please get out of hell from my life! It is just another stupid memory that make me remember u again coz today is my birthday. U will go away again after this ! Happy Birthday to ME......
Erm....today is Friday 15 Oct 2010, I'm in the office as usual. Nothing much to do, mu baby are here waiting for me. But today I want to talk about my brother. He is 18 years old, hm not a boy, not yet u man. Hahahaha..... I read his blog about an hour ago and its quite funny. I mean sad but so cute actually. I think he fell in love with a gurl or something, I guess so. He's telling about all those romance and very flowerish story but that is natural for his age and not suprise for any boy but for my brother it is weird and outstanding thing he ever does. Oh, I didn't know that his like that???? ahahahahaha......come on lah brother, I thought u are thousand miles away from girls but is it change now? hmmm....anyway, Im glad to see him like that because all this time I was so afraid of his "lonely" behaviour....hahahahah!no woman no cry, 24 - 7 gadgets in the house, house boy, no social life and many more weird label for him but it seems to be different now days which is good. I m supporting u brother but u have to understand our parent, they are special weird one. Crazy and still the best. Its nothing to be upsad or wrong in a relationship at your age. But it is too fast to make it serious, trust me. I felt the same as well when I go thru your situation when ibu and ayah disagree when I want to be in a relationship at this age unless u are really sure just like what I did with Ikhwan but still we are not together at last. U may have to taste all the things in this world first then only u know how to deal with it. Yeah u are mature but how much mature u are rite now, u are still 18 lah brother. U don't have experience and that is why they afraid u to felt in love. For me, it's ok cuz I'm not going to continue my study but u have long way to go "GeMoK". Study hard and succeed in life then u can get whatever u want in life not like me...I have to struggle and still struggling to get success in life. So thats all pal, sweet 18 brother ;p
It is stupid planning Sunday. Planning to be with my love one but end up we still stuck at paranoid busy KL at 3.30pm. Just so pissed off with it, and learn this "Do not borrow your money" to anybody. It is totally my principe of my life because it is true the fact is when ever u borrow or u give HUMAN to borrow your money, either it is hard to get back or to give back. That is so F.O! What the fish, stupid excuses, ridiculous nonsense those people gave. Just don;t give a damn, yeah it is true I am stubborn lady here but I have the right, learn towards experience and MISTAKE buddy! Just this 2 things will make human being realize how difficult we are racing for life and easily u want to wash your hand and feet then take it from me, so sorry but im not that kind of human anyway. Be yourself, stick to your rules then u will succeed in LIFE. Reason reason reason that is the only thing can be done when something cannot be done. Come on lah be a man, face it and don't keep on avoiding, running and dissapearing from ME idiot. I work so hard to earn and be on top and money is one of the sensitive issue. Hard life that I face don't deserve for u shit and I won't anything happen to whatever I have sacrifice in life. No hard time, hard life there is no way HUMAN can learn and taste life BODOH! Im only 22 but world teach me how to play with this life, how to see what is HUMAN and what is ANIMAL!!!! so don't ever mess up with people that fulled of LIFE difficulties, they are the real HUMAN being.....
