The Musician

Today is Saturday and I'm working. I know its sound freaky but what to do work it's work. My company work's on Saturday and our off day is on Sunday and again Monday to Saturday working. Erm....IKHWAN FAIZAL??? He is still exist. Sekarang ni I'm a bit confused with the relationship, we broke up about almost 2 years but we still ok lah. Die memang tak boleh lupe kat aku tapi ape aku boleh buat kan? What u all think I should do? Die masih lagi rindu kat aku and aku pun tapi kadang2 je lah..hahaha...entah la. Sejak Francis pindah Cyberjaya, aku rase sunyi sangat and tak tau ape yang sebenanye aku cari dalam hidup aku setiap hari. huhu >.< style="font-weight: bold;">GOD i knew he would said that to me after being there and if he found it OK there. Well I know him very well like over thousand years. Now, we don't have camp my office so quite..boring aje. Hm, anyway I miss u baby...like crazy but no matter how much i tell u, u will not stand infront of my eyes. Ape aku nak buat kalau die g US??? is it I'm gonna die here in Malaysia?? Ni baru pindah Cyberjaya seminggu, aku dah rase cam bertahun2 tak jumpe. Lagi pun dalam kl pun bukan Kelantan ke Langkawi ke tapi still rase jauh. Maybe sebab dah biase die ade ngan aku slalu. So aku kenelah biasekan diri nampak nye. When I'm angry with him, sakit hati and hurt with all his straight forward word, I tried so hard to forget him tapi TAK BOLEH. Bile aku fikir ape bende yg die buat kat aku hancur hati tapi still die gak yg aku rindu. Even lately Ikhwan selalu lah gak contact aku, he's fine to be my friend. We still have good relationship, he wants to make him fall for him again I guess..hahahaha. NEVER. Had enough with u. We are good like this "TBA" (to be advice) hahahahaa......I'm not sure why he still don't have anyone in his life. He said it's not easy to forget me and I felt so bad that I can moved on with my life and be with somebody else. But of course it's not easy to forget him. Maybe for me, the relationship with this MUSICIAN is so hard and hurt and BAD. Especially the mother yang cam bangang. Had enough, we tried to work it out for 3 times but still same issue came up. So I think that's it. He's with a girl now but not in a relationship, it's like complicated he said. The girl is "Mak Saleh" hahahaha...... nak tiru aku plak. Hm, but he said their just like so so...what does it mean?? huhu... He said its not like "OUR" even it's bitter but so meaningful? what he tried to expose to me right here? Sweet talker now? dah pandai dah buat lawak2 bodoh and die sendiri gak yang mengaku die buat bende2 yg die tak bg aku buat dulu...GILER!!! >.< style="font-weight: bold;">"Golden Crocodile"...missing Ira Elaiza every day? However, Francis Enrique is the only one in my heart now. I'm so in love with him even whatever happens. The Musician? Is my past..but not trash. He'll be part of biggest memory in my life. Now just waiting for my future to come. I can't wait to be with him OFFICIALLY and we stay together and have our own family. I mean FRANCIS ok. Jodoh kat tangan ALLAH S.A.W. kalau ade jodoh, ade lah, kalau tak mungkin aku jumpe laki yg lebih baik utk aku. See how...hahahahaha.....but my goal now is Francis Alexander Enrique. But for The Musician, I pray the best for u dear......